Today I’m thankful For…..#4

Good Afternoon!  So, today I am thankful for;
Being a grown up
I didn’t feel brilliant when I woke up this morning, and I remembered back to when I was little, having to suck it up and go to a family thing or a planned event my parents had decided on, wishing I was back in bed, or on the sofa watching TV.

Now I’m a grown up, and, although there are a few negative aspects to it sometimes, there are plenty of positives too!
I got up, pulled on some baggy leggings I wouldn’t dare wear out, and my husbands hoody over my pyjama top-I didn’t even bother putting a bra on (too much information?)
I scraped my hair back into a pony tail and ran a wipe over my face.
I’ve spent the day in front of the TV snuggled with the kids, watching films and faffing on my iPad.  I have only got up to get the kids juice, and get us all lunch, then sat back down.  I fancied a cake and we didn’t have any, so I just got up and made one.  Then I ate some as soon as it was ready.
Because I can, because I’m a grown up now!

The cake thing acutally brings me on to the next thing I’m thankful for today.

 
Being able to bake
You don’t get much chance as a kid to bake, and when you do you’re governed by a recipe out of an old book your parents still have from their ancestors, and said parents are breathing down your neck, checking you’re doing it properly, and making sure you don’t burn the house down.
So when you eventually become a grown up, you kind of have to learn to do these things on your own.
I don’t remember learning it, it just kind of came naturally, a bit like the writing I do now actually.

But really, what a skill to ace.  I want a cake, I make a cake.  The cake I wanted today was plain sponge, with cream and strawberry jam inside, and cream and strawberries on the top.  Luck shone down on me today and I had every ingredient I needed, I made the cake and it looked and tasted exactly how I had dreamt it would in my head!

 
Being able to let go
As I type this, I only have one of my babies at home.  Which isn’t abnormal as I sometimes only have Olivia here in the week, while Kye’s at school.  School, is one of those things you’re forced into having to be OK with as a parent. You know they need it, you know it’s the law, you know there’s not enough brain in your head to teach them at home, so it’s best for them.

What I struggle with more though, is the ability to be OK with letting my eldest child go to friends houses without me!  I know, I know,it sounds crazy doesn’t it, seriously, cut the apron strings woman!  Unfortunately, that’s just the person I am, and always have been. Don’t get me wrong, he’s gone to friends houses before!
Before today however it, was just stupidly hard and I’d worry and have the worst anxiety all the time he was gone.  The difference now is, as I’m getting better mentally, and becoming happier and more positive in myself, decisions such as letting him go out for the afternoon to a friends house, becomes a lot easier.
I’m proud of him, for wanting to go, and I know he’ll do his best to follow the rules that are not only the ones he’s been brought up with, but the ones set out by his friends family. Today though, I’m also proud of myself for having the ability to now let him go.

So that’s all for today’s ‘thankful for’ post!  Don’t forget you can join in to!
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